The shredder

It was around this time two years ago. I had just had my first (and only) ultrasound of Thomas. The date was June 13, 2006. Einstein and I had decided not to find out the sex of the baby. However, my Mother was dying to know! So I had the technician write it down on a piece of paper and put it in a sealed envelope. HUGE MISTAKE!

Einstein and I pretty much decided the baby was a boy. As soon as the technician left the room we looked at each other and both blurted out "boy." There were so many give aways..........a third leg, a "wow this baby is so cooperative," a "well I definitely know what this baby is." We were sure of it.

The plan with the envelope was to give it to my Mother. BUT she was on vacation with my father for TWO WEEKS. Do you know what it was like having that envelope on my kitchen island for that time? It was killing me! I tried to put it away. But then I'd go find it and play with it. Until one day I couldn't take it any more.

It was about a week after the ultrasound and I was losing it. So I went into our computer room pulled out the shredder and stuck that envelope in it. Relief................for about two seconds.

The next thing you know, I was sitting on the floor sifting through shreds of paper. I heard Einstein open the back door and quickly started cleaning up. But he caught me. I felt like the biggest whackadoo ever!

I found an "it" and a "y" from the same blue pen. Of course now, even more, I thought it was a boy. But then Einstein thought, well they could have written "It's a baby girl" and they "y" could have been from the "baby." We played out all the scenarios. I didn't tell anyone. I ended up waiting until another doctor's appointment at the end of Aug. and had them write it down again. I shared it with my Mom and then put it away.

We finally peeked at that one during the beginning of September. We didn't tell though. We kept it to ourselves until he arrived. Did we ruin the surprise for ourselves? I didn't feel that way. It was a surprise to have been pregnant. It was surprise to see what he looked like, how big he was, how much hair he had. Would I peek again................hmmmmm?

(And for the record NO. I am not pregnant!)