He's a winner at forgiveness

Internet, I had a very bad, not proud Mom moment last night.

I said something to Thomas that was downright mean and sliced him to the core.

I wanted to cry immediately after I said it. No I didn't swear at him and No I'm not going to tell you what I said.

To set the stage though, I will tell you that he was being extremely difficult at dinner. For those of you that don't know, Thomas is a horrible horrible eater. Most kids at least eat pasta, right? Not mine. There are only a handful of foods that he eats and it's challenging to get a little variety in.

Last night I made chicken tenders that 3 out of 4 of us gave the thumbs up.

The only thing I try to get Thomas to do is at least TRY things. If he has a nibble but doesn't like it, I will get him something else because he's at least tried it.

Last night he wouldn't budge.

There were tears and cries and screams and "now I can't help Daddy in the garden" yells. It was awful.

And I was frustrated and I lashed out. Even Einstein cringed.

Thomas ran to his room and then came back out crying and saying "why did you say that to me?"

He not only got what I said but he felt it too.

And I felt like a crumb.

I apologized and he did get to go out and help Daddy in the garden.

Then a few hours later when he was laying in bed still awake while David was sound asleep, I went in to talk to him.

And I apologized and told him that I absolutely did not mean what I said and that I wasn't mad. And I kissed him and he said "It's okay Mama, I forgive you."

I hope no one ever hurts him, but if they do, I hope he always has the ability to so genuinely offer forgiveness.

Because the way he forgives, would make it so that person would never hurt him again.